Monday, February 9, 2009

I Am

I am totally stealing this idea from one of my favorite bloggers, Jenn at Juggling Life. I hope she doesn't mind!

I Am . . .

I am from a childhood in a very close-knit, loving neighborhood. I am from the beaches of Orange County, fashion shows at the Bullock's Tea Room, and being spoiled--both by relatives and friends' parents.

I am from poverty and wealth, both figuratively and literally.

I am from countless hours and even holidays spent at CHOC, wondering if my brother would ever emerge from a coma, or live through another brain surgery. I am from many meals in the hospital cafeteria, to helping him pick out a wig for high school, to wishing he could just be like others his age.

I am from hot, windy days, rolling tumbleweeds, majestic mountains that surround me, and a small town that embraces each other in ways I never dreamed possible.

I am from a 22-year career that revolves around the Department of Defense... even though, deep down, I really am from wishing the whole world could just play nice.

I am from older parents--a mother who was practically a saint, and a father who had many flaws but a huge heart.

I am from mental illness, uncertainty, tragedies, depression, heartbreak, and much criticism.

I am from optimism, dreaming, making do, wishing, hoping, finding the best in others, and holding our heads high.

I am from knowing that life is precious and can change in the blink of an eye. I am from learning what's truly important in life.

I am from a passion for music, singing, playing the piano, violin and viola. I am from loving to entertain.

I am from believing in the power of positive thinking. I am from creating a better life for myself than the one I started out with.

I am from empathizing, sympathizing, and wanting more for everyone around me, be it friends or complete strangers. I am from helping others and knowing, "Oh there but for the grace of God go I."

I am from a love of grammar and writing, although I didn't necessarily inherit the degree of talent my mother had.

I am from making memories with my husband and children, whether it be riding quads on desert roads, baking cookies, traveling, or just cuddling together on a lazy Sunday afternoon.

I am from shopping, and the love of everything girly. I am from pampering to pedicures to fashion, and all the princessy things my Godmother instilled in me from a very young age. I am from people who embrace my shallow ways.

I am from chairing the local Combined Federal Campaign, hoping that what I do positively impacts others' lives.

I am from happiness and love. I am from knowing that if I died today, I lived a full and satisfying life.


Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

I love it!

I remember Bullocks--and Buffums, too!

Busy Bee Suz said...

that is so wonderful. really. Just seems you inherited MORE of your Mom's writing talent than you THINK!!
Nicely done.

Life with Kaishon said...

This is so wonderful. I loved every word of it. So well written. You are a gem!

Jason, as himself said...

Fantastic. I love this idea, and I love what you had to say.