Last night, Joe got cleared for surgery, so tomorrow afternoon, we will be heading to L.A. so that he can check into the hospital first thing Friday morning.
I'm both relieved and terrified. I lost my mom during surgery, so it's not one of those high-on-my-list-of-favorite-things-to-do things. I pray they can fully repair his back. I pray he has no no permanent nerve damage, and certainly no complications. I pray we can function as a family again--sitting in the livingroom together watching movies, or eating meals at the diningroom table, all four of us. Just the simple things in life. I don't even care about the big stuff (vacations, etc.) anymore.
Have I mentioned how much I love him? Yeah, I think I have. But I just can't express it enough. He is truly my best friend. No one has ever made me laugh as hard as he does (on a regular basis, to boot), or made me felt as cared for. I need him in my life, and our kids need him. I guess I'm worried because I have read too many blogs lately where there were very untimely deaths. I don't want his to be the next. He won't be, right?
Please keep him in your prayers, if you will, and pray for me to have a little more comfort in my heart than I do right now. I thank God for the friends who will be there for me. I don't know what I'd do without my friends, either... both "real life" and you guys, online.
I'll update when we get home, probably Sunday or Monday.